Idiot

I know, it is a strong word full of foul connotations.  But to select a more gentle word would not be truthful.  After a conversation yesterday, I felt like an idiot.  I am not going to elaborate, no need to have you agree with my feelings....

What I did and do need to continually separate out is difference between what I feel and the truth of what is.  My feelings whisper things like, "Not good enough," "Missed that one, didn't ya," "Ha, told you you should have kept your mouth shut!" On and on this list could go.  You and I might even be able to have a contest as to who has the longer one.  But just because these are whispered to me by my emotions, does not make them truthful.  

The truth is I am fearfully and wonderfully made, loved by choice, stronger than I know, and more precious to Him that I will ever comprehend this side of eternity.  My friend's mantra has been, "Truth over lies."  Just because I feel like an idiot, doesn't mean that I am one.  No, the truth is far different and for that, I am very thankful.